Courtney Stodden is candid about how being sexually exploited by her ex-husband Doug Hutchison when she was younger destroyed their self-confidence and prompted them to get breast implants to look more like Pamela Anderson.
Hutchison, 27, who is non-binary and uses pronouns, was 16 when she married Hutchison at a Las Vegas church in 2011, six days before she turned 51. They have since allegedly been treated and verbally abused by The Green Mile actor.
Stodden received a lot of media attention and was labeled a “child bride” for a “whore” for marrying a 34-year-old man, which affected their body image.
“I was a very insecure teenager. I had a terrible internal dialogue, very negative thoughts. And it didn’t help finding me in an embarrassing storm of my underdeveloped body, which only exacerbated my insecurities,” she said. Yahoo Life †
Courtney Stodden, 27, is working to regain her self-confidence after years of sexual abuse and struggling with her body image.
Stodden, who is non-binary and uses pronouns, was 16 when she married her ex-husband Dough Hutchison in a Las Vegas church in 2011, six days before she turned 51.
They explained that seeing pictures of paparazzi made me hate myself, “I was so devastated that I had to analyze every inch of my body and I got to the point of body dysmorphism.”
In a recent interview with Alex Cooper’s Dad podcast, Stodden recalled how they “petrified” to undress in front of Hutchison for the first time because they feared Hutchison would be scared of their youthful bodies.
They said they wore a thickly padded and ribbed bra on their wedding day to make their breasts look bigger.
“I wanted to dress like Pamela Anderson. That was the original woman,” he told Yahoo Life. “I think it was the image in my head that I had to let go to overcome my insecurities.”
Stodden (pictured in 2013) told Yahoo Life that he was a “very insecure teenager” and developed body dysmorphisms because the paparazzi’s photos “made me hate him”.
They were fueled by Hutchison’s desire to look more like a woman and to keep up with the public’s perception of them when they got breast implants at age 18.
Stodden revealed that they wanted to look like the “perfect woman” Pamela Anderson, but Hutchison is said to have told them they would look “grotesque” with implants.
Stodden was fueled by Hutchison’s desire to look more like a woman and to keep up with the public’s perception of them when she was given breast implants at age 18.
“I had breast augmentation surgery because I had a baby body,” they explained, “but behind closed doors my personal situation and of course my career at the time really required this overt sexual image that I couldn’t quite satisfy. . ”
They claimed that Hutchison was against the surgery and said, “He told me I would be grotesque after he gave me breasts.”
The implants did not change how much they hated themselves and their appearance, which they claimed was a result of the “toxic state” they were in.
In 2018, Stodden filed for divorce from Hutchison, which was finalized in March 2020. Since then, they have claimed that he breastfed and verbally abused them during their marriage.
Stodden said they continued to struggle with their body image after their divorce and planned head replacement surgery, but changed their minds before the procedure.
Last year, Stodden came out non-binary, which they believe helped them recover after being sexualized at a young age.
It was Stodden’s mother, Krista Keller, who legally consented to the marriage, and it took years of therapy to view Hutchison’s greed as child abuse.
In 2018, they filed for divorce from Hutchison, which was finalized in March 2020.
Stodden said they were still struggling with their body image after their divorce and were scheduled for butt replacement surgery because they were “not so sure” about their butts.
They stopped the procedure less than two weeks ago after bursting into tears when they looked in the mirror and wondered why they were doing it on their own in the first place.
They admitted that they still struggle with their body image every day, but are in a better place than last year and would go days without looking in the mirror.
Stodden also decided to share unfiltered, makeup-free photos on social media and spend days without looking in the mirror.
“As women, I am overcoming the most powerful tool we have, brainwashing, sexual trauma, our bodies,” she said. “I’m in therapy with most of them”
Last year, Stodden came out non-binary, which they believe helped them recover after being sexualized at a young age.
They admitted that they struggle with body image every day, but are in a better place than last year and would go days without looking in the mirror.
Engaged to boyfriend Chris Sheng last year, Stodden decided to share her unfiltered, makeup-free photos on social media while learning to regain her self-esteem.
“I’m overcoming the brainwashing, the sexual trauma, which is the most powerful tool we’ve ever had that women are our bodies,” they told Yahoo Life. “Because I have a history of being sexually treated, I really thought it was my worth.
“Obviously, that’s where my value comes from. HE [my body] actually the most important thing about myself is when i look back and now as an adult it is so disgusting. And I am in therapy with many of them”.
Source: Daily Mail
