How my relationship with masturbation has evolved over the course of my life

23 February 2019

It probably all started around the age of three. fun facts: most of my earliest memories are of masturbation. Fun for family meals, “Do you remember the grandmother? “.

My five fingers on my pants, it wasn’t about penetration but some kind of little massage. A show open to the public. Yes, no modesty in the child. Easily installed on the armchair or on the living room carpet, in front of the TV, wherever orgasm called me, I was.

Childhood masturbation and reactions of those around him

I have memories of my family that kindly let me know that this business had to stop. Strangely it was my mother and grandmother who asked me to stop while my father and grandfather adopted, in my memories, a much more relaxed attitude towards this family business.

While women are angry at seeing me play around, men downplay the situation. I can’t help but wonder what their reaction would have been if I had been a son. Fortunately, as a child and in free interpretation, I decided to follow the paternal field. If dad tells me it’s okay, if dad doesn’t say hello while he smiles, it’s probably that I can carry on.

Strengthened by my new conviction, very relaxed and free from all misunderstandings, orgasm and I started our best life. In private. I can definitely say that I have often masturbated since I was three, 27 years old. Guaranteed orgasm at every performance. Nobody lost. Orgasm is undoubtedly my most faithful friend. We evolved together.

Female masturbation, a taboo in adolescence

On the other hand, when we reached adolescence, he and I began to question our friendship. I have heard that our relationship does not necessarily have to remain exclusive, that a third person can join us. But orgasm had become something very personal to me. I was very modest, away from the public spectacles of my childhood. Definitely also shameful. When I was a teenager, back in those remote times of the 2000s, it wasn’t very common for a girl to masturbate. Or rather to talk about it.

Sex with a guy, if it was to take place, didn’t necessarily have to end with my pleasure. I clearly distinguished between having an orgasm and having sex. At the same time, what I did with my ten fingers was all about me. When I started having sex around age 17, I was almost steadfast and resigned myself to keeping control of my orgasms for the rest of my life. With possibly a coitus from time to time to satisfy the future man of the house, charitable that I am.

I didn’t know at the time that it was possible to talk to the other half. To explain to him what I was doing alone to have pleasure. I never broached this subject with my parents. Not that it’s particularly taboo, but sex was very mechanical as I understood it at the time, and I didn’t feel the need to ask questions.

The discovery of orgasm for two

During my studies, in 2008, I had the chance to come across a site whose articles and the forum section relaxed my brain. Yes, Madmoizelle participated in the revolution of my sex life! The Internet is a treasure. Thanks to communication and letting go, I discovered orgasm for two.

My various sexual partners have tamed this friend who is dear to me, each in their own way. Despite my different relationships and all the pleasure my different guys have given meI never stopped masturbating. I don’t necessarily masturbate the same way I did when I was three (thankfully), and I keep discovering my body on my own in parallel with the different sexual intercourse I can have.

As if you were doing an exploration in order to better explain to the other how to do next. It also works in reverse. I have already been very surprised by certain orgasms: I thought I knew myself by heart, but leaving the field free for my partner to work at his ease, I have discovered some unsuspected strategic areas!

I have long thought that masturbating was a sign of lust and vice. That I would be harshly judged for being the embodiment of a cardinal sin. A secret I should hide forever for starting so young. Doomsday or not, I have been having frequent orgasms for nearly 30 years which I wish everyone because have fun, it’s still very cool.