Cara Delevingne talks about her problems with addiction and explains the breakthrough

Paparazzi are one of the big drawbacks in the life of actors and actresses, but it seems that sometimes they can come in handy to see from the outside. At least that was the case for Cara Delevingne, who After many years of alcohol and drug problems, he started his rehabilitation following some photographs taken last September at the Burning Man music festival where she was seen behaving erratically. The photographs have aroused the concern of the whole world. “It Wasn’t Right”confesses the actress on the cover of the March issue of Vogue.

The model and actress, who has always been available to talk about her problems, opens up completely with the magazine to tell what moment of life she is in now, four months sober after entering a rehabilitation clinic. Though she’s had several surgeries from her loved ones, she admits she’s not quite ready then. “That’s the problem. If you’re not down and ready to get up, you won’t.”says Delevingne, according to the Hollywood Reporter.

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“There’s an element of feeling invincible when I’m high. In those moments I put myself in danger because I don’t care about my life”confess. “It’s something that scares the people around you who love you”. He speaks in particular of her relationship with her mother, who is also a victim of substance abuse. “I didn’t put myself in her shoes for a long time. I just needed someone to get mad at and I was mad at her, but it wasn’t her fault.”.

The actress says the first time she abused alcohol was at the age of 7 at a wedding, where she drank glass after glass of champagne. “Woke up hungover and dressed as a bridesmaid in my bedroom at my grandmother’s house”. Growing up, his problems increased: he suffered from insomnia and dyspraxia, a psychomotor disorder that makes it difficult to coordinate even the simplest movements, as well as what he calls “involuntary self-harm”. When he entered the even more complicated age that is adolescence, “everything collapsed”. At the time, he spoke of the struggles he was having with mental illness: “At the age of 15 I was hit by a massive wave of depression and anxiety”. In the Vogue profile, she specified that she used parties and alcohol as an escape mechanism from all the questions about herself and her future that she was unable to answer.

Life change

To overcome her traumas and addictions, Delevingne followed the famous 12-step program and leads a healthy lifestyle with three meals a day, yoga, meditation and group therapy. She also points out that the community that was part of the program was what changed everything for her. “The opposite of addiction is connection, and I really found that in the 12 steps”. Now that you understand how important physical health is to your mental health, ensures that working on herself is her priority in her life, even before her career.

“Before, I was always trying to heal quickly, going on a weekend retreat or taking a trauma class, which helped me for a minute at most, but I never got to the bottom line, the deep end.”He says. “Of course, this process has its ups and downs, but I’m starting to realize a lot of things”. Emphasize that it’s not as easy as saying she’s no longer an addict and is now sober.. “It doesn’t happen overnight. Of course, I want things to be immediate. I think this particular generation wants things to happen quickly. But I had to dig deeper.”.